Against winter depression

I have been trying to write this for a long time. I was thinking about how often we people get discouraged and loose hope so easily. Just focusing on all the small things that go or possibly can go wrong. This is why I decided to write a new note to encourage you and myself.

For past few years I have been facing big decisions coming up on regular basis. What am I going to do with my life? Should I go to university or travel to another country? What should be my job like? Just a milion sentences eneded with question marks in my head.

Two years ago I decided to become an au pair. I made a decision but hat brought so many new questions with it:
Where to go? How do I know what family is right for me, there has been so many families that I could choose from but none of them seemed to be the one... God provided everything I have been worrying about. He answered those questions and leaded me where I needed to be. He gave me a great host family that a lot of au pairs don't get, he gave me a beautiful place to stay and a wonderful church.

Year after that I had to decide if I should extend or not. This time God seemed to be quiet with what he has planned for me. I was very nervous about the situation,  as I knew the time to make the decision is getting closer. I knew God was in control but didn't feel peace about my decison, He didn't give me many hints on what to do.
At the end I decided to replace the question "why stay" with "why not". I still wasn't sure, but I decided to stay and right after that God just filled my life with so many blessings and showed me that it was the right decision. 

My life in Vermont is just great. there are moments I called it perfect. I appriciate every day because I know that soon it will change. Every day is a gift and I get only one chance to live it the best way I can. Only one chcance to be joyfu that day and to notice all the sparkles hidden in John's eyes and get a perfect teethless smile form Isabel. To find God's hand protecting me from the evil. Tomorrow is never promised. your next breath is not guaranteed.
The things you worry about might never happen, tomorrow's test might never come.

Matthew 6.31-34: “So don’t worry about these things, saying, ‘What will we eat? What will we drink? What will we wear?’ These things dominate the thoughts of unbelievers, but your heavenly Father already knows all your needs. Seek the Kingdom of God* above all else, and live righteously, and he will give you everything you need.
“So don’t worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will bring its own worries. Today’s trouble is enough for today."

This year I am in the exactly same situation I was in last couple years. I know soon I have to make a decision about my future. I have numerous versions of what I am going to do, some of them SEEM imposibleto accomplish by myself,  but I am not by myself anymore. And the One who lives within me is bigger than all the things that bother me. He gives me peace that is bigger than my understanding. And I encourage you to do the same things.
Count all your blessings, be thankful and pray.